All tagged surrender

Becoming A Mommy

You know how some people are just born with the gift of nurturing and loving little kids?

I remember that trait in my first, real, best friend, Amy. Even at five or six years old, she seemed to gravitate towards the babies in the church nursery every Sunday.

But me? I didn’t like the nursery. It always smelled weird. Like a musty combination of dirty diapers, saltine crackers and juice. And the babies and toddlers? They were okay. But most of them smelled too. And they were usually sticky, smelly, or crying. No thank you.

Who is God of Your Life?

The other day, I was listening to a talk by a speaker named Kim Meeder. She said something along the lines of this, “In life, there is really just one question: ‘Who will be the god of your life?’” Hmmm… Maybe Good Friday more than any other day, is an opportunity to ask ourselves that question. We celebrate the day Jesus was born. Christmas. We celebrate the day Jesus rose from the dead. Easter. But we also celebrate the day Jesus died. And we call it good.

Surrender Makes Me Brave

Today, I opened a book I had purchased a few months ago at a writers’ conference. The author had scribbled out my name and underneath, “Be Brave.”

I’ve been struggling with that lately. So I laughed. I may have almost snorted out my almond milk hot chocolate.

There’s only one way I know how to be brave. And it comes via surrender.

When you just wanna wallow...

Have you ever had a “wallow” day?

You know, one of those days where you feel miserable and you just sort of wallow or soak in it?

Sunday started out as a big wallow day.

I cried during Communion at church. Not because I was having a come-to-Jesus moment but because I was overwhelmed in my fear and frustration.

Dreams Coming True

“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14

I’m feeling overwhelmed this morning. But it’s not what you might think.

Normally, when I feel overwhelmed it’s because I’ve lost some perspective. I have a to-do list a mile long and an overwhelming sense of angst over all that I must accomplish. 

Venting Confessions

The struggle is real. And sometimes life is ridiculous. You can laugh or cry.

Some days I do both.

First of all, as I type this, I swear I smell dog pee. Is it possible that cute naughty dog has taken to peeing under our bed?

All signs point to yes.

Believing God for Some Serious Calm

Note to self: Today’s agenda feels crazy. Drop off all the kids. Volunteer. Meet with friend. Pick up some of the kids. Drive out of town. Drop off more kids. Go to hair appointment with two little kids. Entertain kids with laptop while stylist covers grays. Go home. Pack. Freak out a little about flying across the country tomorrow. Obsess. Try to get some sleep.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”  (Philippians 4:6 & 7)

Deep breathe in. Slowly exhale out.

Life Lessons from The NFL Playoffs

I’ve been watching professional football games since I was a little girl. Football in our house means some obnoxious yelling, crockpot meals, and lazy family time. And in my humble opinion, the playoffs are the best games to watch- maybe because they’re full of drama and high stakes leading up to the biggest prize: the Superbowl AKA a chance at The Lombardi Trophy.

She's Teaching Me

My three-year-old sits across from me on the couch, ankles crossed, leaned back and confidently rocking her pink and teal mix-matched pajamas. Her curls fall out of messy pigtails and she’s grinning from ear-to-ear as she watches a video starring her as a baby. Her chubby hands grip my phone and she’s singing along to the familiar soundtrack. She loves watching her story unfold on the screen and lately she’s been asking to watch the video more and more.

I watch her in quiet awe, and I feel sentimental wondering how long she’ll be like this.

A Million Dreams of the World He’s Gonna Make

Have you ever deeply longed for something? The dictionary suggests some synonyms for longing: “thirst, hunger, ache…”

We can romanticize those words all we want. But being thirsty, hungry, or having a perpetual ache are rarely fun experiences.

And what are we hungry or thirsty or aching for?

To Be Faithful

Are you ready for 2019?

I don’t know about you but the days between Christmas and New Years tend to be filled with lots of disorientation over days and dates. These fuzzy hours are mostly spent planning for the future, cleaning up the holiday mess, purging “ all the things” and sugar bingeing the holiday treats before we go on a diet New Years Day (although this year my husband talked me into getting healthy the day after New Years so we can overindulge a little longer).