Rambling Reflections from a Jet-Lagged Writer  

It’s almost 5am. I’ve been up since 2am. I did my hair and my makeup. I took a shower and am all packed up. The bus across the mountains doesn’t leave for another five hours but I am ready with my jacket and shoes on and my purse across my shoulder. By the time I finish this, I will be on the bus.

 I’ve been gone for nine days. I can’t wait to get home and see my family.

Surrender Makes Me Brave

Today, I opened a book I had purchased a few months ago at a writers’ conference. The author had scribbled out my name and underneath, “Be Brave.”

I’ve been struggling with that lately. So I laughed. I may have almost snorted out my almond milk hot chocolate.

There’s only one way I know how to be brave. And it comes via surrender.

When you just wanna wallow...

Have you ever had a “wallow” day?

You know, one of those days where you feel miserable and you just sort of wallow or soak in it?

Sunday started out as a big wallow day.

I cried during Communion at church. Not because I was having a come-to-Jesus moment but because I was overwhelmed in my fear and frustration.

Dreams Coming True

“The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14

I’m feeling overwhelmed this morning. But it’s not what you might think.

Normally, when I feel overwhelmed it’s because I’ve lost some perspective. I have a to-do list a mile long and an overwhelming sense of angst over all that I must accomplish. 

Venting Confessions

The struggle is real. And sometimes life is ridiculous. You can laugh or cry.

Some days I do both.

First of all, as I type this, I swear I smell dog pee. Is it possible that cute naughty dog has taken to peeing under our bed?

All signs point to yes.

Believing God for Some Serious Calm

Note to self: Today’s agenda feels crazy. Drop off all the kids. Volunteer. Meet with friend. Pick up some of the kids. Drive out of town. Drop off more kids. Go to hair appointment with two little kids. Entertain kids with laptop while stylist covers grays. Go home. Pack. Freak out a little about flying across the country tomorrow. Obsess. Try to get some sleep.

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”  (Philippians 4:6 & 7)

Deep breathe in. Slowly exhale out.

Life Lessons from The NFL Playoffs

I’ve been watching professional football games since I was a little girl. Football in our house means some obnoxious yelling, crockpot meals, and lazy family time. And in my humble opinion, the playoffs are the best games to watch- maybe because they’re full of drama and high stakes leading up to the biggest prize: the Superbowl AKA a chance at The Lombardi Trophy.

She's Teaching Me

My three-year-old sits across from me on the couch, ankles crossed, leaned back and confidently rocking her pink and teal mix-matched pajamas. Her curls fall out of messy pigtails and she’s grinning from ear-to-ear as she watches a video starring her as a baby. Her chubby hands grip my phone and she’s singing along to the familiar soundtrack. She loves watching her story unfold on the screen and lately she’s been asking to watch the video more and more.

I watch her in quiet awe, and I feel sentimental wondering how long she’ll be like this.

A Million Dreams of the World He’s Gonna Make

Have you ever deeply longed for something? The dictionary suggests some synonyms for longing: “thirst, hunger, ache…”

We can romanticize those words all we want. But being thirsty, hungry, or having a perpetual ache are rarely fun experiences.

And what are we hungry or thirsty or aching for?

Spins and Soft Landings

“There’s only so much willpower one has when surrounded by piles of Christmas stocking stuffer chocolate and the visible evidence of impulse holiday cheese purchases every time you open the fridge.

And every year, I inevitably encounter a problem called reality.”

To Be Faithful

Are you ready for 2019?

I don’t know about you but the days between Christmas and New Years tend to be filled with lots of disorientation over days and dates. These fuzzy hours are mostly spent planning for the future, cleaning up the holiday mess, purging “ all the things” and sugar bingeing the holiday treats before we go on a diet New Years Day (although this year my husband talked me into getting healthy the day after New Years so we can overindulge a little longer). 

The Grinch

There’s a part in Dr. Seuss’ famous Christmas tale, where the Grinch complains about all the whos down in Who-ville. They are singing and enjoying Christmas and that Grinch hates it. He is sick and tired of all the “Oh the NOISE, NOISE, NOISE, NOISE!” He then comes up with a devious plan to sabotage Christmas.

 The Grinch is gnarly, green and ridiculous, right? He’s a hard character to relate to.

 Except sometimes, if I’m honest, I am a little like that Grinch.

A True Story: Pressing Send & Letting Go

The Bible says perfect love drives out fear. (1 John 4:18)

I want to be a woman who is fearless.

The only way I know to become that woman, is to be anchored to the deep love of Christ.

To deeply know the love of Jesus Christ is to be a woman who can love with total freedom.